My Partner was clean for a whole year. Through his suggestion we used apps and he had placed cameras in his place. We dont live together but we stay with each other 3+ nights a week.
I finally started trusting him again, so when he swapped rooms with his children and said he wouldnt put the camera back up until the next day was I okay with that. I was okay i thought and believed I could trust him, I was proud of myself and throught I could finally show him too that I trusted him.
But he used my trust against me, he knew I could see his phone still. So decided to go on netflix and go on temptation island and find a woman to masturabte to.
A whole year of absolutely nothing I let my guard down for one day and he does this.
He lied through his teeth, said he hadnt done anything said he was just flicking through, on a programme I had asked him not to watch. We use to watch it together and he started not following the story and just watching the raunchy parts.
I felt safe, I felt like I could finally trust him, I could finally let my guard down.
All his bragging of being clean a Year and if people wanted to stop they can they just dont want to because they dont care about their partners.....
But I guess its different now because "obviously he cares," about me right.
Im sorry I just needed to write this down somewhere, I dont need any advice I guess im just telling my story