My life just feels like a nightmare
I used to be smart, charismatic and so much potential. Now I'm extremely dumb, my brain feels dead, struggling to get through university, missing assignments, failed courses, no friends, no relationships. I literally just browse youtube, reddit and play games because it's the only thing that distracts me from the pain of what has happened.
It's funny because at 16/17 I would have nightmares of my life how it is now, I remember one nightmare was me failing a test, another one was me basically being a neet, and now 5 years later I am essentially living that.
I just can't believe i went from someone who would consistenly be an A+ student, and constantly getting awards, and having stem hobbies, to now being literally a nobody failing subjects I would have breezed past in school with all my hobby knowledge lost. And i always think if the unlucky events that caused this to me never happened, I would be living the best life probably employed in nasa or something, now I'm shell of what I was 5+ years ago.