this is a burner (she knows my reddit)
Im lost. I've been feeling like this for ages but its the first time im feeling in a relationship for context (not sure if necesaary but i have adhd and in my childhood feelings were not expressed)
Im feeling empty, have no feelings like happiness, love, sadness nothing and I know its hurting her but I literally can't help it. I've tried but it just doesn't work.
It has been fine for over a year but recently I've started to feel nothing not even sexually and when I do its sadness and stress even thought nothing is wrong. Literally everything is perfect, She loves me and i love her. She cares for me and I care for her, Im financially well, got my dream motorcycle and a stable job
The reason im writing is because I recently had my first panic attack. She woke up told me to breathe, calmed me down and went back to sleep and never talked about it after. It feels like shes done with me
tl;dr I don't feel anything, have panic attacks and she acts like its normal and doesn't even try to talk about it and i need to know if its normal or not