I feel. Weird. I know it doesn't really do anything physically at first, but. It feels weird, still. I'm excited in a way I wasn't before, which is nice. But more than that, I feel calm. Certain. There was an INSTANT of hesitation before I took the pills, one moment of uncertainty that was gone in a moment.
God, I want this. And I didnt realize how badly I did. And now that it's started, I feel centered in a way I never have before.
I just. Did not expect to feel this sense of... even keel, this immediately. Obviously I know transitioning is not a cure all for my mental health but ever since I realized, I have this sense of... togetherness that I have never enjoyed in my life.
I just wanted to rant, thank you. I just. I might be an ugly girl but damn it Imma be a girl. And apparently a cottagecore girlie which. Unexpected but alright ig.