I know this sounds terrible but I cannot stand babies. I don’t think they’re gross I just really cannot stand a baby in my house and the thought of being pregnant.
I grew up with so many people in my house. Aunts, uncles, cousins. We all lived under one roof. At any given time there was abt at least five babies and I hated it. I didn’t get undivided attention from my parents. My grandparents were very sick and I spent a large deal of my life having to be a parent or therapist to the adults and children in my life.
I know that mentally I would not be able to deal with a newborn. But I don’t want that to be the only reason I adopt an older child. I just don’t want a kid to grow up and age out of the system and have to live a miserable life which Ik isn’t always the case but it is very common. I want to be able to give a child a good life but I’m scared I’m too messed up mentally to give it that.
There must be something wrong with me if I don’t like babies.
I need advice