AIO. Honest opinions please
I have been in a very toxic relationship. Everytime I try to break away, my partner.Does everything that they can to keep me with them. There was too many examples to use so I will go with one of the most recent. This person tends to want my attention all the time. When I say all the time, I mean through my work hours, when I'm cooking and cleaning, when I am talking to my kids.. All the time. When I don't give them all of my attention , they become very angry and very volatile.
Recently ahead of family member pass away. From the day that they passed, my partner i immediately demanded my attention and wanted to keep me talking to them when I was distraught and overwhelmed , and in a lot of pain. I didn't have any words but they insisted that I be on the phone with them. I asked then I pleaded for a little bit of time in space to process my grief and that turned into another nightmare scenario where they made sure but I did nothing else but focus on them.
They came to my house and enforced me into a fight or flight mode then did their usual finger pointing citing me as the problem. I then begged again for a little bit of time to process.. I was met with arguments in false accusations and insults day and night. I decided to cut ties with this person and they still blame me making themselves out to be the victim. I feel horrible. I've been struggling with suicidal ideation. I've been apprehensive about posting this for fear that they will find my post and punish me for it, but here it goes. am I overreacting?