u/Far-Maize2828 — reddlx

Sabi nila your life flashes before your eyes kapag malapit ka nang mawala. Akala ko cliche lang yun, pero totoo pala. Kaya kahit hindi na tayo nag-uusap, gusto ko lang iwan 'to rito. Para sa'yo, at para sa lahat ng nakakalimot mag-ingat sa sarili nila.

I called my sister just after a few minutes of trying to take a nap. I didn’t know she was still at the condo. Akala ko umalis na siya pero buti na lang she decided to stay dahil concerned daw talaga siya sa lagay ko when I told her moments before na my arm feels numb. That small decision of hers saved me.

I called her kasi bigla akong nakaramdam ng chest pain. It wasn’t too intense at first. Akala ko kaya ko pang magdrive, kaya lang umabot sa point na feeling ko parang magpapass out na ko.

My sister was trying her best not to panic while driving. Ako naman I’m trying my best to stay conscious. But I could already see my life flashing before my eyes. Totoo pala yung ganung pangyayari.

Grabe yung pain. At some point nahirapan na akong huminga. Then I can’t remember anything na. Sabi ng doctors, heart attack na pala yung nangyayari sa akin. I got lucky kasi hindi severe yung tumama sakin.

Akala ko I wasn’t scared of death. I always joked about being pagod na sa buhay. I told my friends I wasn't afraid of dying because, honestly, adulthood feels like a long-drawn-out exhaustion anyway. But I was wrong. At that time, I really feared for my life. Akala ko at 26, tapos na lahat.

I saw my life flashing as a series of regrets. Sayang yung mga hindi ko pa nasasabi. Sayang yung mga hindi ko pa nagagawa.

I’m still at the hospital right now. Di na makatulog and slightly bored. Honestly hindi ko talaga plano i-post 'to rito, pero I’m doing it for awareness na rin. Kaya please, please listen to your body. Don’t be like me. Don't wait for the moment you're gasping for air to realize how much you actually want to live.