u/Fantastic_Hat1696

Im 18, im a very seize the day person, i dont study a lot but I get good grades ( starting my senior year of hs after summer) but I never think about the future, I dont care because I have the mindset that I can die any second, so I should live for right now, not for something that may or may not happen, I enjoy life and every little moment, while I dont care if im rich or succesful in the future

I have adhd and I dont care about materialistic stuff at all, I dont care about being succesful and rich, I wanna have a good job but for me my life goal is to settle down with a loved one and live a fullfilling life with her, I also dont wanna have kids

But wont this mindset bite me in the ass in the future? Like except studying i do nothing to prepare myself for college , I have a goal of becoming a music journalist but i dont really do a lot to gurantee that , I go to concerts and hang out with my gf all the time ,im also a karting driver and i win a lot of races, im very athlethic but not in a gym way but I go running almost everyday ,im a very extroverted person and i dont drink or anything, I have never done that and nothing attracts me to that

Im really happy with my life , I would say much much more happy than pepole who study all the time or worry about the future, I have no worries because I belive everything will work out, but is this mindset good?

Im 18, I was addicted from 14 to 17, couldnt do a week without it, it all changed when I met my gf, and I never looked back

After I started talking to her I never even thought about watching it, I forgot about it, now it just disgusts me

I hate how it objectifies woman, I hate how it turns this beautiful state of intimacy, this ultimate beautiful love moment beetween two souls into a product, I hate everything about it, every time I even think of porn after I started talking to my gf it makes me wanna vomit, this whole industry is so fucked up, its so disgusting, I hate it so much. I wanna write so much more but no words will describe my hatred for this shit

These fucked up scenarios, the fact that you get bored and start to look for more and more weird porn, looking for actresses that specifically look your type, its so disgusting, I hate everything about it, its an insult to life, to love, to everyone struggiling with this addiction, its okay, you will get over it

Please from the bottom of my heart, dont watch this shit, after I stopped my mental health became so much better

Fuck porn