22 yr old female
Long story short about a month ago my bf decided to get drunk I had a few shots but was barely anywhere close to feeling anything, anyway for more context we have a kid been together for over a year, I didn’t have the heart to have an ab0rtion and I would never go back and make that decision either, I’m very happy about my child.
Anyway he got super drunk I guess he drank to much and then a flip switched in his head he does this thing where he takes off and drives when he’s mad so we got into a small fight because he said something mean then invited me to go take a shower with him I declined and sat on the couch and cried instead, I get over it and I go to the kitchen basically he gets out the shower and then drives off and once he got back from drunk driving-
He basically starts going off on me after I got upset he was drunk driving- to keep it short I want to tell you guys some things he said to me that night
“I do not love you the only reason we are together is because of loyalty” another thing he said to me that night was “I am your karma for ———“ (a past relationship)
And last but not least he told my roommate who came down to protect me while he was screaming in my face “I don’t even care about you btch I’m only here for the baby”
Even went as far to break in through the kitchen door after he got mad, bc he said he was leaving took his keys and went outside, I locked the door because lowkey I was scared as hell, he jumps over the fence in the back and literally is screaming to let him in, I didn’t and then he breaks through the door and breaks the door frame.
Honestly I have tried to get over that night but it replays in my head because I feel like the things he said are his truth even though all he says is “I was drunk, I don’t remember”
I feel as if we really shouldn’t be together, I had my own crash out the day after but I was more in the feeling alone and just feeling like I was so unwanted in life by everyone and I did crash out like bad but everything iv said to him drunk iv said sober I told him he didn’t deserve a baby or gf and he was a pos and ofc more stuff but like I said iv said it sober. Wellll with all that being said aside from this he is a good provider and man but even after that he didn’t even wake up and right away to apologize, I took my baby to work and we dipped he didn’t call me till 1 in the afternoon acting like he didn’t know wtf happen, he apologized when I tried to break up with him over it but yea I need advice do you think what he was saying, subconsciously he actually thinks and means?
Also my baby wasn’t around during this, she was sleeping plus I wouldn’t let him come near her bc he was acting crazy