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I don’t know what is happening in my head

(I had a hypochondriac episode last month where I thought I was dying and every sensation made me spiral and I could not eat or sleep because I thought everything would kill me and now it’s coming back)

when you’re falling asleep and you can catch your thoughts going crazy and stupid and they’re just so wild that you can’t explain it and it’s like your brain is dreaming? The thoughts are super nonsensical that you can’t even put them into word?s? It’s like my inner monologue has become overtaken by these nonsensical thoughts like I’m constantly falling asleep and it’s terrifying because it feels like I’m not controlling my inner monologue. Sometimes it feels like my brain falls asleep on me. Like I’ll be having a conversation and in the middle of the conversation it’s like I’ll disappear and then I’ll snap back to reality even though I’m still continuing with the conversation like normal even when I’m out of it. It happens all day Like every 10 seconds my brain shuts off and then I’m pulled back to reality. And I’m like “ Oh my God did that actually happen? Was it actually me what just happened?” It went away when I was hanging out with my friend, but like in the back of my mind, it was still There. I wonder if I blocked out some of the feelings that I had during my episode last month because now I keep Having sensations and they feel so familiar, but as soon as I focus on the sensation to try associated to I’ve had I lose the feeling. I just feel like I’m losing my mind or I have dementia or brain cancer there’s something Wrong in my head and I just want this to go away. I feel like I’m trapped in a nightmare. It’s like my brain sometimes doesn’t even believe and I just claw my way my head. It just feels So unreal. When I think back about something that happened hours ago, I doubt myself and wonder if it actually happened or if I made it up and I’m going crazy. Has anybody else Had this I’m so scared something is wrong with my brain like brain, cancer or dementia or something and I don’t know what to do. I just want this to go away.

also, I do have POTS Which me out because it gives me heart attack and dementia symptoms just a terrifying disorder to

recently, I’ve been noticing that every time I go upstairs as soon as I get all the way upstairs and lay down, I hear my heartbeat in my left ear maybe a minute after I go upstairs. It’s really scary because Google automatically says the pulse tinnitus is a really bad symptom and can be something very dangerous. I also feel my heartbeat throughout my whole body when I go upstairs does anybody else have this and is it normal?