u/FanficFan151

Hi, I’m AMAB and I’ve been thinking about my gender and myself for a while and I’m close to (probably) starting on hormones. And I am both very excited and very nervous for that to happen, I’ve wanted it to for a bit and I’m just excited and nervous for that.

But I wanted to ask, is it normal to feel a sense of mourning for myself and the body I have? I haven’t hated my body until recently, it’s gotten me through a lot in my life and I just feel like I’m mourning it a little bit. I’m still excited for this, I still want to be received as female by people looking at me, still want boobs, still want softer skin and a different facial structure, and laser hair removal eventually, but is it normal to mourn what could’ve been if not for being born like this and with the dysphoria that doesn’t match my AGAB? Mourning what I am before these changes to myself even though they’ll be good ones for me and make me happier and stop a lot of my dysphoria?