I don't speak unless spoken to. Most of the time, I don't have much thought or reaction towards most things. Even when I do, it's usually just a couple sentences long. I am not sure why. I think I am just born this way. I have inattentive adhd but I am not sure if it's related. The problem is this makes maintaining conversation very difficult for me because I really don't have much to say. My mind isn't distracted, it just goes blank in conversation and it feels like my brain needs to go to overdrive to pull things out of thin air to maintain conversations. It's incredibly draining. My conversations rarely lasts long unless I am exchanging actual information like work related stuff or specs of products I want to buy. People might think that's because I don't a hobby but I do have hobbies and they are going to cinema, watching animes, history documentaries, building plastic Gundams and taking walks. But I only like experiencing them and not thinking about them. Even when it comes to my hobbies, I don't have much to say. So you can imagine how great my conversation skills would be. To make things worse, even when I do have something to say, people either don't care or understand. Sometimes even outright interrupt me and move onto other subjects. I only seem to do better when it's a 1 on 1 conversation because the other person wouldn't have anyone else to talk to but me and have to put his/her whole attention on me.
Does anyone have the same problem and how do you deal with it?
I'm 25, soon to be 26. Never dated. Only have friends from secondary school and 1 from work. I just feel cooked and I don't think I can make any new friends let alone girlfriend.