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We are in LDR, far distant relative! He approcahed me first multiple times and then i replied… story began like this! Its kinda filmy but it was his last day on Nepal he came for his sister weeding ani my other cousin had came she didnt had his number and social but that guy was sending me request multiple times and I had accepted he had sended messages I always ignored! Tara tyo din dd said abt how she had to call ani she called from my insta seeing us mutual! Ani he messaged me saying how we always wanted to talk with me since childhood ani How he searched for my profile until he finally found ani he tried texting ani i didint reply before this we talked on his sister wedding i bascially congratulated!

Then we began talking ani hami slowly call garna thalem ani we used to talk so much idk how it would be Nepal ko 12 or even 1 hami non stop bolthem like aila sochda k bolem jasto lagthyo this continued for months we were just friends but he had said how much he loved me from 2nd day ani euta bartaman thyo ma ni gathi in Dhading ani he has asked my other cousin that if we can marry or not! Ani cousin le ni jiskauna thale!

Ani he was so sweet everything abt him and us it felt like we were meant to be together! Ani one day he said me how much he loved me and i confessed too! He said to his parents! He posted our pic in snapchat tya bata cousin haru sab lai ni tha vayo ani their mom! Then we started dating sabai ramro Then we started dating sabai ramro oproperly tara usle garna chai gartheto tara paila jasto haina

Hijo ni sutchu vanera ma gathi ani after 2 hrs i woke i was not feeeling well i had crie d entire day ani ma chadai sutna lathi tara even after 2 hr he was on he had iniated a convo with a girl he said hi how you she replied too ani fb id magyo ma usko fb herdina ani maila login gareko thapayera text nai garena! Usle afno insta story post ni garya raicha hide garya raicha sab kura hijo tha vayo malai kasto pahad bata khasya lagya thyo uh cha ni jasto lagya thyo! Mom Dad lai vanera, merai bacha bela ko photo insta ko profile rakhera ni ani maila hijo rati call garda teai bela uthayena ani aja bihana chai story chai arkai sochera hide gareko thiye re sab lai tara malai matra thyo hide he was singing basically ani he texted to ask for money re she is also out of Nepal re!

k vanam ? Mero time energy? hami rat vari bolthem ani ma usko lagi vanera khana ni khathina bolna lai! Usko birthday ma maila paisa navai ni suprise pathako thiye! Like k vanam ma? He will probabaly talk with girls and have fun tara me? mero ta mamaghar malai nai kasari hernu huncha merai mama le indirectly vanu vathyo eakchothi malai, like mero mom lai tha vo vani maila jaila ni uslai vanthi dont dont tell aila tara sab lai thacha usko ta keai huna huni ta meari ta ho. I was even seeing my dad side on him, my dad passed away when i. was in grade 9 , he used to love singing and that guy has uplodased music videos and wanna be singer too

kasto manipulative va ho ki ho aila ta pura cool act garcha kina risako baba vancha!!

The worst thing is I will hear his name, his mother dad i will see them my image has been tarnished mero pura mamaghar lai thavaisyo uslai navana navana vanda ni vanyo post teai ni snapachat ma sab cousin lai dekhauni gari rakhyo ani aila ni causually boliracha! He never guided me yetikai bolni time waste vayo mero yesto mentally worst vako bela yesto jhan vayo like i will be in this pain but for him nthg?

We are trio, ani mero A sathi ko chai visa lagyo UK ko she is flying soon! So I called them for lunch hijo ani aja my B sathi called us for lunch, I was first to reach there! (B le chai malai jaila bully gareko jasto lagcha! Like hai aba mero photo khichdena vanda chai purai mood off parera halni ta haina kina khichnu paryo vanera kasto naramro sanga khichya thyo! Ani hami bahira gathem hamro birthday ko din B ra mero birthday sangai ho ani A and B chai sangai mirror selfie li ra ani malai cha kasto exclude garira I felt sosoosos baddddddd! Ani also A and me were friends first and good friend! Pachi B ayera trio baneko! Ani B le chai malai kaila ta timi vanirahuncha ani mostly timi ani A follows her! Like we say ta aba yo shift it was weird but it kinda hurts yk hami ta aba close vayepachi matra vancham ni ta! )

And I arrived on lunch in B house early ani i was bored ani A lai call gardai them mero phn bata ani battery sakera we called from B ko phone ani tyo bela A le message gari hai B ko whatsapp ani i was like wait she is tryna say smthg vanera i clicked on that message and B literally took her phn away ani maila herana vaneko thi hai purai text nai na herna huni uni haru ko jasto! They call eachother quite often raicha and bitch abt me! We have group chat we almost call daily in that! Ani kya naramro lagyo ani maila sabai dots connect gare! B was always saying timro ghar kaila bolauchu always tryna roast and put me down! I have to clip my presentation ko pic i asked her to click pic she literraly cutted my face in all photos!

I am cryingvvggg like my only friends! I have no other friends! It feels so bad! So bad! I was bullied in college from the mean girls group for literally nthg they used to post abt me in confession group kasto naramro naramro just becauseee one girl crush liked me ! I am frustated at this point!! I never got to enjoy the female friendship! I am just so sad and depressed! Like whyyyyyy me i hate this!

I really wanna enjoy female friendship, i dont even have nooooo friends apart from themmmmm! It really hurts

I finished high school in 2024 and planned to study in Australia, but my student visa got rejected after my family already spent so much money. Now I am alteady in debt with my mom around 15 lakh and we are struggling financially.

My father passed away 4 years ago, relatives cut ties with us, my mom is uneducated and my brother dropped out too and doesn’t take anything seriously.

Meanwhile I wake up late, stay on my phone all day, overthink, panic, and do nothing. I haven’t joined uni and feel stuck in my home country with no direction, no guidance, and no support system. All my friends are abraod who applied alil sooner then me who got their visa and they are studying working lifes good mean while me havent even joined bachelors

The scary part is I’m actually ambitious. I have big dreams and want to change my life and help my mom, but mentally I feel frozen. Every day feels heavy and empty.

I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression severe when i was in grade 9, can this be this cause idk man! There so much that has happened in life! its impossible to write it out here cause it will be very long!

Please advice me what should i do? Everything looks hard