I was happy. In our entire relationship i was genuinely happy. I enjoyed your company and your love. Thank you so much my love, for letting me experience all the first time. You were right, i wouldnt be able to forget you. But i dont mind, i dont mind remembering how much we made each other happy. I didnt know what went wrong, i really wanted it to be you. We did our best and that was enough. I didnt know our story would end, i thought you will always be in every chapter. I didnt know you were just a side character in my life, a lesson, a passerby. I dont regret a thing, for once in my life i loved so deeply. I learned how deep i could love. We werent always okay, but that was okay for me. It might not be for you, but it is for me. It was lessons we needed. I wasnt also a perfect partner to you, i admit that. You were a great chapter in my life. Lets not hide the fact that we were happy, that i made you happy. Because i wouldnt deny that you made me happy. My love, always remember that you were loved by me. In all ways, always.
You will always have a special place in me. But not on my heart anymore. I was deeply hurt, you made me feel so replacable. Are you more happy when you are with him? Does he give you the things that i couldnt? I want to hate you love, i want to despise you but i cant. Im stuck between "you chose something that will genuinely make you happy" and "i tried my best to make you happy, but why did you?". It might not be cheating for you but what you did will always be cheating for me. You were so scared that ill replace you but it was you who replaced me. I thought were settled already, thats why i want to chase my dreams because i knew you'd be there. But i was so wrong, for you it was getting boring. But yeah, it happened. And maybe this is for the better, maybe i was meant to teach you someone would love you for who you are with no restrictions and you were meant to teach me you couldnt fix a broken person by loving them so much, that love cant make someone stay. You will never be enough to the person who doesnt want you.
But yeah, its time for me to let you go. To finally be free from the shackles of you. To stop letting our memories haunt me, instead when it visits me i would be happy. Because it was a dream not a nightmare. We changed a lot, i cant even recognize the person you became today. You are not the woman i once loved. And i wouldnt love the person you are becoming now. I wouldnt admire you now. I would always keep you as a happy memory. We might not have ended in good terms but it was the best 3 years i experienced. Thank you love, i will be around. And i know we wouldnt see each other anymore, because the person who loved you so deeply is leaving. I hope you'll have a good and happy life, you've suffered enough. I hope our paths wouldnt cross ever again. Farewell.