u/FanFicsAlterMyBrain

I have feelings for my guy friend. I, 17F, have known my guy friend, 18M, for over 3 years now. We live about 2 hours away from each other but once went to high school together. We developed romantic feelings for each other during our sophomore year. I was not in a good place and my view on relationships was not healthy due to the ones I witnessed and had growing up with those around me. So I "ran" from my feelings and from him. For some reason this impossibly sweet guy still liked me despite it and continued liking me into our junior year. I had the same feelings but everytime I would tell someone who I considered my support and friends would talk down about the idea and undermine my feelings for him. Im positive I loved this boy at some point. Now its our senior year and I've began talking to him again for like the first time since I moved about 6 months ago. Talking to him has realized not only am I still attracted to him but my romantic feelings for him are still present within me? This is an issue because he told me he think he may have a gf pretty soon, a junior he's been talking too. Its bittersweet because he deserves someone and im happy for him but I also wish it could be me? I guess my thing is now I know there's no chance for "us" anymore and im beginning to get okay with that fact. My dilemma is do I tell him I have these feelings but like there's no intention to act on them or is that selfish? I dont wanna ruin this friendship or make things weird but like I think he deserves to know but would that also be selfish in a way, me telling him? I suck at these things please help🙏