u/FalconOk7702

I never had sex with my first girlfriend, we were 15 when we met and split in 18 like a month ago. She told me often that she just afraid of pregnancy and she can’t do it. In the breakup I got fat shamed and told me I didn’t turn her on because of my weight and she was afraid that if we did it I would smash her onto the ground because of my weight (1,93cm 120kg).

Later she apologised and told me that she only said it so she can breakup with me and didn’t mean it. I lived with my parents and she used that as the why we didn’t really have sex. Things got worse because now I’m thinking that the whole pregnancy thing was a lie and she will get to do it now. I spent so much time and effort, even gave her my old iPhone and guitar. Now she was reposting on instagram some posts with alternative boys, and how she likes that style in boys which I don’t represent at any way. She told me that she didn’t want a relationship with anyone and now this. Everyday I wake up I feel like shit and don’t find happiness in anything I do lately. She might do it with someone in a short period.

My first relationship and only till this day was a girl at the beginning of high school. We got together but she revealed to me that she had chronical depression and I never thought of leaving. We never had sex, she was afraid of pregnancy and generally intimacy was a pain in the ass. I live with my parents and she didn't feel safe to do something with the parents in the other room. Getting intimate was once a month at best. She never had much friends. I always sat with her and told her that one day you find many friends as you wish and you will be the first choice of someone. That day came in university when she found a really good friend as she said. I never really got to meet her friends. She didn't want to meet them for some reason. Anyway, when she found friends she seemed to be hanging at every possibility which is normal but she turn down any date I offered that was planned outside of our town. (Our town is like 30 minutes away from a big city where we go to uni and hangout in the past). The problem is that she hangout in the big city I said every time they said but when I offered a date she turned it down immediately because of the need of getting in public transport. After the 6moth period of university, one month ago she decided to broke up with me. She said that I don't try to be handsome for her and we don't hangout as we used to. (I have problem with my weight even though im very tall I am overweight and she always said that she liiked me even with the extra weight "1.93cm and 120kg"). Then she dropped an absolute bomb. She confessed that I didn't turn her on sometimes because of my weight. I froze that time. It was the turning point of the whole argument. I told her that it was the worst thing anyone told me ever. No friend of mine body shamed me with such a way. We decided to have a break for like 6 months. This didn't last, one day I asked her what about it she said that I don't think we will get together and we will just remain friends. I accept friends+ even though I was deeply hurt and I saw her happy for once. Fast forward this week I told her that I don't think I can remain her friend. I demanded the real reason we broke up and she told me that it was not the extra weight I have. She said that it was my family. Especially my mother. My mother takes care of my autistic sibling which is non-talkative and has 90% disability. She was always very protective about us hanging in the house because didn't want us at 16 to have sex in our house. I still live with my parents and she said that the reason we didn't have sex all this time was my house too (even though I suggested to go for one day trips etc). We decided that we will have no contact. Then a couple days later I see her reposting about other boys and the alternative style in general which I don't represent at any way. At another situation it would be totally normal. But in this I found it very weird. When we became friends+ she told me that I was very special and she doesn't see her with another man for a very long time. After 2 weeks I see her reposting about boys which have a totally different style from me and with all said it broke me once more. I told her about it and tried to get finally to the truth but for once more she said that she still finds me special and she didn't found anyone else. Now we said we will remain friends once again. Sorry for my bad English. Any questions to the story would be good because it's so complicated that I don't think I have said all the things but only the most important.

My first relationship and only till this day was a girl at the beginning of high school. We got together but she revealed to me that she had chronical depression and I never thought of leaving. We never had sex, she was afraid of pregnancy and generally intimacy was a pain in the ass. I live with my parents and she didn't feel safe to do something with the parents in the other room. Getting intimate was once a month at best. She never had much friends. I always sat with her and told her that one day you find many friends as you wish and you will be the first choice of someone. That day came in university when she found a really good friend as she said. I never really got to meet her friends. She didn't want to meet them for some reason. Anyway, when she found friends she seemed to be hanging at every possibility which is normal but she turn down any date I offered that was planned outside of our town. (Our town is like 30 minutes away from a big city where we go to uni and hangout in the past). The problem is that she hangout in the big city I said every time they said but when I offered a date she turned it down immediately because of the need of getting in public transport. After the 6moth period of university, one month ago she decided to broke up with me. She said that I don't try to be handsome for her and we don't hangout as we used to. (I have problem with my weight even though im very tall I am overweight and she always said that she liiked me even with the extra weight "1.93cm and 120kg"). Then she dropped an absolute bomb. She confessed that I didn't turn her on sometimes because of my weight. I froze that time. It was the turning point of the whole argument. I told her that it was the worst thing anyone told me ever. No friend of mine body shamed me with such a way. We decided to have a break for like 6 months. This didn't last, one day I asked her what about it she said that I don't think we will get together and we will just remain friends. I accept friends+ even though I was deeply hurt and I saw her happy for once. Fast forward this week I told her that I don't think I can remain her friend. I demanded the real reason we broke up and she told me that it was not the extra weight I have. She said that it was my family. Especially my mother. My mother takes care of my autistic sibling which is non-talkative and has 90% disability. She was always very protective about us hanging in the house because didn't want us at 16 to have sex in our house. I still live with my parents and she said that the reason we didn't have sex all this time was my house too (even though I suggested to go for one day trips etc). We decided that we will have no contact. Then a couple days later I see her reposting about other boys and the alternative style in general which I don't represent at any way. At another situation it would be totally normal. But in this I found it very weird. When we became friends+ she told me that I was very special and she doesn't see her with another man for a very long time. After 2 weeks I see her reposting about boys which have a totally different style from me and with all said it broke me once more. I told her about it and tried to get finally to the truth but for once more she said that she still finds me special and she didn't found anyone else. Now we said we will remain friends once again. Sorry for my bad English. Any questions to the story would be good because it's so complicated that I don't think I have said all the things but only the most important.