Partner Resentfulness : Sick Baby . Sad rant
Just to say I have never ever resented my partner this much until my baby got sick for the first time .
Baby and I are both sick , and with sleepless nights my body isn’t recovering like it is supposed to I’m dead ! Baby is one year old but still wakes up multiple times at night and sadly because of his illness he only wants me (mom) to care for him . Not his dad . Also wants me to carry him around all day and be his in house entertainment . Which I usually gladly do , but right now i’m just exhausted (even my garmin told me to rest)
Right now i’m filled with so much irrational hate and resentment towards my husband and thinking to myself how did i get myself here , how did i end up being the default parent while he enjoys life and gets to sleep a minimum of 5 hours per night (yes i would kill for 5 hours that’s how pity i’m ) . Why is my baby preferring me over him ? Is it an energy thing , can baby sense my exhaustion like he senses hot meals and coffee ?
Have you ever been sick with baby at the same time ? Did you want to run away and start a new life ? Get a divorce ? Get admitted into the hospital just to have an excuse to relax ? Give up to Ms.Rachel’s witchcraft and let your baby zone out for days ?
In all seriousness , i’m just tired . Any tips or anecdotes would help . Is this normal ?