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I recently met a brahma kumari person who was inviting everyone from my colony to join the newly opened centre near my house. He invited me to join but i told him i worship maa kali as param brahma rupini. He looked at me from toe to head and gave a smile and said you worship her that's good but we will teach you the correct way to worship brahma and we teach you how to do dhyan sadhna properly so you can understand your soul. He emphasized on the soul going up to a param dham.

I follow advaita vedanata so i told him, there is no up or down, there is no place to go but an realisation that moksha is not a place to go but a state to be achieved. He said you don't know how things happen as you're still young.

I recently met a brahma kumari person who was inviting everyone from my colony to join the newly opened centre near my house. He invited me to join but i told him i worship maa kali as param brahma rupini. He looked at me from toe to head and gave a smile and said you worship her that's good but we will teach you the correct way to worship brahma and we teach you how to do dhyan sadhna properly so you can understand your soul. He emphasized on the soul going up to a param dham.

I follow advaita vedanata so i told him, there is no up or down, there is no place to go but an realisation that moksha is not a place to go but a state to be achieved. He said you don't know how things happen as you're still young.

I read Half of the balkand of ramacharitra manas and the entire kalika purana. I understood quite clearly their symbolic meanings, for example, in ramachandra manas it talks about Sant and Asant and says birds are chanting ram naam at the house sant and in asant they are cursing. It's a symbolic meaning of the point of view of both. Sant finds ram naam in the chirping of birds while asant finds it disturbing. And another example being Lord shiva and maa parvati meditates on Ram naam in ramacharitra manas while in kalika purana, Lord shiva was told to meditate on the name of param brahma.

I used advaita vedanata to decode both ram and param brahma are the same consciousness.

I remember trying to read gita a year ago but was taking the literal meaning of each word hence got confused.

I'm not sure how the dvaita followers understand those scriptures. Do please enlighten and give me suggestions on how to improve my reading.

Hi, im an 21 year old male. I'm an bhakta of Shri ram and hanuman ji. In September 2025, My father has passed away due to high sugar levels. In his greif, i stopped worshiping shri ram and hanuman ji. It remained same till jan 26 in which my focus started shifting towards the creation of the universe. I wanted to know how universe was created as i knew about big bang but what happened before it. When researching for it, i came to know about nasidya shukta which stated that there was an consciousness present before universe expanded and lit up by light and that consciousness was hidden by the darkness. I connected that true colour of that consciousness is not white/saffron but black since it consists of all colours. I believed that we are the same consciousness which existed before the creation of universe but we cannot see it since we are blinded by our own ego.

So to remove my own ego, I did an hawan, for which i cleaned my entire house, took blessings from each god from my temple and my entire family by touching thier feets so my hawan can be successful.

Hawan samigri were mango tree woods, Cow dung uple, Black til, Kapoor and ghee.

I chanted Ram naam before started the hawan. Somehow tears started flowing from my eyes and i started crying like a kid. I never done this before and didn't felt like this even at the death of my own father. I felt like this while looking at the fire and the fire was touching my face but it didn't felt hot but it felt like cold breeze was hitting me.

I felt like i belonged there and i would eventually would go in this fire like my father so I'm nothing in this world so i have nothing to win/loose/fear/rescue even my own consciousness is not my own.

Once hawan was cooled down, i took own the bashma and applied on my forehead in an unique tilak i don't know why i made this but i named this pradakshina pundra because it's an two bindu tilak, one above and one below and there is an Rightward swirl coming from above bindu to below bindu.

Since then I'm getting an attraction towards maa kali and even I'm imagining her face whenever I'm alone.

I don't know if this is real kali or not.

Also my father was an kali vidya sadhka, He used to worship maa kali and chanted beej mantra. However, he always advised my not to worship kali as she punishes her devotees.

Please Suggest me your opinion.