u/Extra_Rate_8552

I'm only starting the medication but I'm already so done with all of the hoops you have to jump through with all of the blood and pregnancy tests, having to go to the gyno to get birth control I won't need, waiting a month etc.

My first blood test came back with slightly elevated creatine kinase which apparently is completely normal after some exercise. But my derm wouldn't prescribe me the accutane unless it was normal (which one week later ofc it was).

After all of this, I'm really scared I will get another slightly abnormal result and then they will discontinue my treatment.

Do you have any tips to try and avoid this? I guess not exercising the days before? Downing plenty of water before? Not eating greasy foods?

Was your derm quick to discontinue the accutane if a result was off?

For example, when the therapist asks me what has been troubling me, I can't come up with anything concrete. When they ask how my week has been, I find it genuinely hard to tell because I know I have felt a variety of emotions and can't determine a tendency. It just seems too complex. So I just say that it was good.

If I write something down that devastated me at some point, as I walk to the session, I suddenly find it was just a silly obsession that I should discard.

This has led me to end therapy because I (and the therapist) believed I might just be fine? But now I'm still super isolated and often find myself too anxious or avoidant or lazy/unmotivated(?) to go outside or have relationships. I did try to bring up my general inability to build genuine connection but the therapist didn't seem to know what to do with it.

Have you experienced something similar? Is this a lack of emotional/self-awareness in some way? Am I just unable to have effective talk therapy?