Substitute father
I'd like to share my problem here. I'm a 30-year-old woman born into a troubled family. My father was awful and abusive, and I never had a good father and the loss of my father had a profound, though invisible, psychological impact on me. I often sit and think, "If I had a father, I would be truly happy." I feel a great emptiness without him. Why do most people have a father, and I don't? You might say I need a therapist. I did see one, but it didn't help much because it's not what I need. I need a real father—warmth, true fatherhood. When I have that, I won't have any problems. That's what I feel, and that's what the therapist told me too. I wanted to ask if it's possible to find a father. Are there any ways or websites that offer opportunities to find a substitute father? I truly wish I had a father, and I'm trying not to lose hope. I believe everyone deserves a father. Please be kind in your comments. Thank you for your time. Any tips, recommendations, or ideas would be helpful to me.
edit: I forgot to mention that this is the first time I'm speaking about this publicly. Although I seem perfectly normal in my daily life, I've spent years with unseen tears and an unfillable emptiness. Of course, I believe there are other joys in life, and we should focus on the positive aspects and what we have, not what we lack. I believe that not having a father isn't the end of the world, but I hope this wish will come true. I don't tie my worth and happiness to his presence, but I simply yearn to experience what I haven't : loving fatherhood.