Advice Need about my relationship with 18F
Good afternoon everyone!
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I am a 19FTM dating at 18F. We are both college students. Me and my girlfriend were having a discussion about transitioning and I asked if she would act different if I had a penis. She said that we would be having more sex than we are having right now, because she’ll be able to see when I’m hard and have kids with me. And that she fantasizes about me having one a lot. This just hurt a lot. Our sex life is pretty much nonexistent now, we went from having sex everyday to none. Which before this conversation I didn’t mind sense we were both busy with school. But now I’m starting to wonder if there’s other reasons. I already have a lot of bottom dysphoria and I am having a hard time accepting that there are a lot of things I won’t be able to experience ever without a penis. Like having my own kids. Which is something that became a huge trigger for my bottom dysphoria. And she just hit me with a double whammy which hurt a lot. She apologized. A lot. She said she felt horrible and knew it was bad to say the second it came out and regretted it immediately. She said she didn’t know how to respond without making it sound bad but she was also being honest. I told her I needed time and went to the bathroom to cry. I don’t know how to get over this. We’ve been together for 2 years and this has been hurting me all day. Heart aches every second I think about it. How can I make this better? What do I say to her? Do I end it? Is she losing interest?