u/External-Smile4830

I'm feeling so raw tonight. 😞

I know I'm just a fat autistic bum but please don't replace me darling. I don't think my heart can handle it. I already feel like I'm drowning in a sea of tears. 😿

Are you angry with me darling? Someone told me that your girlfriends were saying really mean things about me, and that you joined in. I told them that it couldn't be true because you were just talking to me about us having a future together. 

I thought posting this here would help me gather the courage to bring it up the next time we talk. I want to talk to you about it now but I've just been so very scared to approach you about things. Last time I did you told me you didn't care about me and that you never did. It was like I could hear my heart shatter into a million pieces. 😭 

You know me babe that I am more than willing to chat about things if I've done anything to upset you. And you know that I don't have anything to hide. Even that time someone tried to frame me, it turned out to be nothing. Everyone knew that someone had hacked my electronics multiple times, and that I would never do anything like that. I know I'm just an autistic lowlife but you care about me so much, so we can work through anything I'm sure. It feels like such a dream come true that you chose lil ol' me over everyone else. After being terrorized and harassed by past girlfriends it's such a breath of fresh air to be treated like a prince. 🤴 

I hope we can work through everything. I know you would never purposefully say horrible things about me. I'm sure your friends just pressured you into it. I hate to say it but your friends are pretty toxic. My heart just hurts so very badly and the tears just won't stop and I've felt so sick to my stomach all day.

I feel so much better getting this off my chest before talking to you. I already feel so much more courageous! I'm so thankful that you're helping me gain more confidence. Breaking my spirit over and over again really has paid off. Maybe one day I can finally be good enough for you. 

Sincerely, 

T

This is such a frustrating situation. My girlfriend's cousin puts their dog in daycare during the day and it's not a good place. I noticed their dog had some new bruises when I picked them up at the daycare as a favor one time. I asked a worker about the bruises and they gave a really suspicious answer. I looked into the daycare and it has horrible reviews. I talked to another owner who used to take their dog there, and they said that a puppy even lost their life while in their care! Her cousin doesn't care to do anything about it though, which is just so messed up. I did talk to a old family friend of my neice about it. I knew they worked in law enforcement but I thought they were just a regular officer. Turns out they are actually a chief. They work out of town but they have a lot of connections thankfully. I didn't name names or anything but they did advise me on what needed to be done so if the is mistreated the law would be able to step in quickly. Still, I don't understand why her cousin doesn't care about putting their own family member in harms way. I tried to talk to her other cousin about it but they just turned around and blamed me! Which is crazy!! They won't confront who is actually putting them in harms way, but they think it's okay to put the blame on me! It's so gross that people care about saving money more than keeping those in their care safe. Maybe my girlfriend can do something about it.