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I took sacred medicine in a ceremony today. I went into it wanting to release anger a pain that I still held due to my husband’s infidelity 7 years ago. My husband was with me, along with one of my dearest friends, a shaman, and her mother to assist. My husband didn’t know what to expect and told me afterwards that seeing me in that state was traumatic for him. He was going to also take the medicine but decided not to after seeing my experience. I talked to my friend who was there too (he also took the medicine and had a very emotional release) and he said that I was wailing so loud that it was echoing through the mountains (we were outside) & at one point, I was on my knees with my arms outstretched, screaming. I don’t remember any of it. But I feel so much less pain and sadness now. I feel sort of glad that my husband was traumatized by what he saw. What he did to me was so horrible and traumatic for me, so I would imagine that witnessing that pain be released in such a physical way would be overwhelming to him. I just wanted to share this to unpack it some. If you feel called to respond to my post, that’s cool. The experience was amazing and very healing for me