Thinking of going to one this week, wondering if anybody has experience. What did you like/not like. I know lots of people that have been to AA meetings. Some say it’s the best thing they did and some say it was too cult-ish for them (even if they still got sober).
2 months plus without weed, and it seems to be getting harder. First few weeks were hard but I was motivated by how stupid and ashamed I felt the last time I smoked (literally walked through a blizzard and spent whatever money I could come up with at the dispensary 5 minutes before it closed). when that motivation faded I was drinking to ignore the weed cravings, then I cleaned up my act, started eating better and working out again. I thought I was through the worst of it and that I had my life back again.
But this brainfog won’t go away, it’s so much harder to focus now, and the cravings keep coming back worse. I’ve had dreams about weed, I’ve browsed on dispensary websites imagining smoking. The thought of it is stronger now than it was right after I quit. Never posted on Reddit before this, but r/leaves kept me clean tonight, I was walking into a dispensary hating myself for it, and I pulled this up on my phone and read some posts and got out of there thank god.
Most of the time I have enough self control to not go out and buy some weed in the moment, but the thought of it is always there. I’m always thinking about excuses, or future times that I would allow myself to smoke. I know if I smoke once I would just go right back but the thought of just one joint is hard to ignore. I smoked very heavily for 5 years, hit my cart all day long, from the moment I turned off my alarm in the morning till the second I passed out at night. Just worried I’m gonna have a bad day at work, or have something else shitty happen to me and say “fuck it” and smoke.
For someone further along than me, what do you do in those moments when the temptation is really strong, other than just replacing weed with some other vice?