it feels like my mum doesn’t like me
im 16 and i have anxiety and possible autism, i find it very hard to go into school everyday as it’s really stressful for me. my mum tells me she understands but she screams at me and has actual tantrums whenever i can’t go in, which makes it even worse tbh. on the days i can go in she doesn’t say well done or make me feel proud of myself at all, even if i go in everyday for a couple weeks i don’t get an ounce of praise and it just makes me feel like my progress is being unappreciated. whenever i tell people about how i was able to do something that i find hard she always has to put me down and it makes me feel like i shouldn’t be proud because everyone else can do it. i have been in all week so far except yesterday, and instead of being proud of me she’s upset over the one day i didn’t go in. i just don’t understand why she’s just solely focused on my mistakes. i understand this could also be stressful for her in some ways too, but the main thing she shouts at me for is because my school calls her when i don’t go in, which could be easily fixed by her communicating with them and telling them i’m not going in so i feel like she’s just finding ways to shout at me (as usual). but even so could she not just think about how i feel for once? if she didn’t want to comfort her child why did she even have me? whenever i try tell her about how i feel she just shifts the conversation to her and how she has it worse. (i love my mum a lot, in no way have i wrote this to sound horrible at all, i just have no one to talk to about this.) i genuinely feel so alone right now and i feel like none of my friends like me and i don’t know how to fix it, if anyone has any advice please lmk!!