u/Express_Body_2116

Im visiting europe for about a week for the first time, i knew their food was different but i didnt know it was to a degree that just... made me sad. I pretty much only snacked on random crap today and my poop came out solid. even with all my regular meals my poops dont plop sometimes. Actuallly have WEIGHT. They have fresh, sealed fruit at tesco. Chia and oat puddings. Everything has fiber retained and even the smallest of things have me feeling very satiated. I saw the limited edition Starbucks drink that was pistachio flavored and I hestitated until i saw the cal count. 62 Cals. 62 fucking cals. and the skinny latte is 35. 65 would already be low cal and utterly revolutionary in america. Meanwhile im over here constructing constant yogurt snacks and eating sweet potatoes just to curb my cravings and sweet tooth. i love those things and all but it gets old. Id love to have something fun from the store now and then. but when i do my body just starts craving more/ feels like ass. i always end up wishing i made some jello concoction

Im so sick of our country trying to kill us with fatness. It sounds so comically evil but they literally subtracted the fiber from all our snacks so we eat more of them and get fat as shit. id love to be able to enjoy snacks at gas stations and the like, but i literally cant. its all trash- its not even worth sparing the calories sometimes. everything tastes like shit. meanwhile i can get a kefir at tesco snd feel like i just had an entire meal with half the bottle for like 50 something cals. Whatever man

i grew up eating incredibly healthy and fairly active and still managed to end up overweight. im not giving up but wow. it hurts to know that if i lived here i basically wouldnt need to try. And im sure europeans struggle but compared to banality of the states its fucking luxury. Puppies and rainbows. 62 calorie sweet latte. 62. 62.

This isnt a blessing. Its happened my whole like. People and even groups just develop this deep fixation on me or instantly start crushing. this always happens when i finally open up and start reciprocating and wanting friends. which takes a lot for me to do.

I recently moved and finally found someone with interests i can talk to them about, i felt so lucky they happened to be into it. it seemed almost obscure. all i wanted to do is talk to them abt it and their projects. but i got that 6th sense that told me they were definitely into me despite only meeting twice. I feel bad i dont want to reply to them anymore with the same enthusiasm because theyll get the wrong idea. i even made the mistake of talking about my old relationships which, based on their expression, gave me this impression they saw it as a greenlight 😭 This happens a lot. Maybe more if i opened up more, but its like when i do, these types come out of the woodworks and start professing their love to me.

Im upset. i feel like i always attract people who are serial daters or love to hook up or have unhealthy attachment styles. Or they dont and it just happens anyway and i activate some obsessive sleeper agent in them. I started hating being open as a result, i opened up again, and it happened again. i just want people do be normal. im not doing anything flirty at all other than just being kind and open. either most ppl have terrible attachment issues these days or are always looking for a soulmate- Or i just attract them. Actually i KNOW i do from experience.

we talk a lot about people being adverse to us but theres also the other side. i think i mask too well or something and have made myself too appealing. its pushed me into isolation more times i can count. you don't understand, it can be weirdly dehumanizing at times when people reduce you to a novelty. i remember in hs people would call me a god or weird stuff like that

No, gregory house is no enabling me to say whatever offensive bs pops into my head. its an exaggeration. but my god if that portrayal is not the most accurate take on an autistic man ive ever seen in media from that time. Even if its unintentional. I genuinely identity with this asshole- of course, minus the abrasiveness and posessiveness Well, maybe some of it.

Since its a show, every character is exaggerated to a degree- their reactions, moral standings, etc. house included.

But the point is, whenever i watch houses struggles. see the people around him want to help the guy regardless. Say things as they are, having found people who take his advice to heart but also hold him accountable. Im not tooting my horn and saying im some sort of savant like house. hes a CHARACTER. its like all of my impulses executed into an exaggerated persona. its weirdly healing to watch. it makes me feel less afraid to stand out and annoy people, but i still have the sensibility (unlike house) to back down when i have to. Watching him have obsessions, one track thinking. random talents. kinda disheveled all the time. But stands by everything he says, and is, to some interesting degree, an open book. people can trust him to tell the truth- a role i often find taking.

idk even know where im going with this. watching him just makes me feel validated. starting the show people have said ive been more confident and quick. a little less shameless- but not unashamed to tap out of stuff that bothers me. its embarassing but i also felt this way about bbc sherlock even though i absolutely hate that iteration of him. but the stupid mind palace hallucinations are incredibly similar to what i go through when reverse engineering problems with my bottom up processing curse/ blessing

idk

Hi. My mom recently became utterly obsessed with BTS, she got tickets to see them this weekend but couldnt find anyone to go with. Other than a friend whos going to be faaar away from her seat, she'd be going alone. I do not care about bts or kpop in general. I even have a few qualms with the industry and dont find a lot of the sound or their "stories" to be very compelling since its so curated. Though I would say I'm more into the older stuff from the 90s and 2000s, but that obviously sounds drastically different from bts.

Anyway i am dreading going. but shes looking forward to sharing this with me. I feel incredibly bad I cant just make myself like a single aspect of bts- its one of those things that will essentially never interest me. But im terrified of going to a concert so big, loud, and flashy for something i cannot bring myself to care about. Im concerned about the noise. we'll be at it for TWO days ALL day. A pit in my stomach opens up just thinking about it.

Anyway, has anyone here been to a bts concert? How was it for you as an autistic? I have loop earbuds which should help but idk are there areas I can retreat to at all? I just have no idea what to expect and i can only anticipate my worries.

And no cancelling is not an option, it'll break her heart. She can already tell im hesitant/ sensitive so i dont want to push it any further and upset her. I jumped at the opportunity to accompany her because i think letting her go alone is worse than enduring whatever i have to