u/Express-Resist6791

i’ve been on Adderall for around two years now, the past few months i’ve been contemplating and i feel extremely far behind on life. i’m 18 and i have little motivation to do anything with my life, things like getting a job or a license. i’m looking into it a lot more and im realizing im stuck in life. my emotions and i feel so numb inside. but im scared to get off and im scared ill never be the same. how long am i going to feel permanently scarred for? does it ever get better and will i gain motivation to live my life.