Literally until I turned 13 years old I was a very good looking kid, and now I am ugly as hell. It is so painful. I don't know what happened. I am treated so terribly now and I have zero social skills because when I was younger it was so easy to make friends. People would just come up and start talking to me. I never had to make an effort.
Now, I have been called ugly probably 5-6 times. Someone even straight up told me "You used to be so handsome, what happened?." When I took my mask off during COVID in high school a girl genuienly said "EWWW, WTF?"
This is genuinely so painful. I know what it's like to have "pretty privilege" when I was younger and then having it taken away. It feels like the world has turned on me for no apparent reason. Literally like everyone just decided to collectively hate me.
I don't know if anybody can relate, but I just feel so guilty because I feel like i had horrible habits during puberty that fucked up my face. I played video games a ton and must've had horrible posture. I got braces but almost never wore my elastics. Probably mouth breathed too. I don't think anything at this point will help, not even surgery. It's crazy how these little habits can fuck up the rest of your life.
Being ugly is such a hard pill to swallow.