I have had a crush on this guy in my class for a few months now and I kinda feel bad for him for some reason. Its not because I don't think I deserve love or anything like that (I used to feel that way but this is different).
I think its just that I don't want a relationship but I want to have him around. That probably sounds really bad. Like a friend yk? I can call them when I want but still have other people that I'm friends with. That wouldn't mean that I would like him any less but I also don't want to be in a relationship with a person because it sounds so constricting.
If this helps, I am a virgin 18 yr old who enjoys her freedom and my crush is 19 so I don't want anything serious if that makes sense. I just want him to like me back but not for him to want me to have "relationship rules".
Is this feeling selfish? Please don't sugarcoat cus I feel horrible for thinking this way.