u/Expert_Play5570

I am so uncomfortable with the stability sometimes

And it’s not bragging rights. I feel like existing while healing from CPTSD is like living in a country where the only person speaking English is me.

I’m somehow at ease when I endorse the threats that do not exist - it really feels like taking the tricycles off when I step closer to a different truth

And it’s that I’m actually doing ok. And I’m in control because I’m an adult now and the threats no longer exist

And I hate the discomfort of what I’m suppose to trust is safety.

And of course when reflecting on this, the fact I have to remind myself of this is fucked up already.

I’m sorry I’m just processing