nostalgic for / attachment to dreams ?
i didn’t really know how to word this title or post tbh. i know there have been discussions about people with BPD having extreme nostalgia, and sometimes melancholy along with it. i’ve experienced both this, and vivid/ reoccurring dreams, that i sometimes mistake for reality.
i’ve had these vivid, almost episodic dreams, since i was young. there will be fleeting moments in my waking life where i feel their “essence”—it will be a dream i haven’t thought of in years sometimes, and i can feel and envision snippets of it. i have so many dreams, spanning nearly a decade (if not more), that will suddenly rise to the forefront of my memory, and in so much detail.
i have these feelings of connection and attachment to them. i “miss” them, and for as long as i can remember, have had feelings of longing tied to my dreams. it can be pretty intense and destabilizing. does anyone else experience this? do i sound insane?