I don’t think I want to be a mother anymore
after my first experience with pregnancy, I realized how horrible it would be. And everything on social media and the American work & health system has reinforced that being a mother is horrible. my first time I was pregnant for 5 weeks with suspected HG before getting an abortion. within those 5 weeks I had already become anorexic from not being able to hold any water or food down, I felt like I was truly dying and I don’t regret my choice. The American economy & health care system is not fit for mothers, it only serves to make our life & health worse.. at this point I fully believe I will die from pregnancy and/or labor and risking my life for a child isn’t worth it to me. i married my partner with the intention of having children, because I was naive many years ago, but now I am severely turned off by the idea. I’m worried about his reaction to this and he doesn’t understand my concerns simply because he is a man and he won’t get it. evil runs rampant and is targeting children in this world now and I don’t feel I can adequately protect a child from the evil, it’s too pervasive