I wasn't sure about twin flames before this but now it really feels real. I think I'm slightly in an atypical dynamic because I am the DM and the runner whilst also being much further ahead in spiritual development and also the only one aware of the connection.
I have been obsessing over this girl for a few months and it's always super awkward between us. I can barely hold a conversation without it be super awkward and wanting to run because she triggers all my traumas. In my mind, she was way out of my league and she would probably think I was a loser if she got to know me. So I resist all my obsessive thoughts and try to move on from her and become detached but it never worked and it just drove me nuts.
A few days ago, I was in bed and the obsessive thoughts were incredibly intense. I am quite advanced in meditation so I investigated the source of the thoughts and it was an energy blockage In one of my chakras. As I sat with it, the blockage unfolded and suddenly it felt like it has her energy and not mine. As if an aspect of her was present there with me somehow.
Initially I freaked out and tried to make her go away. I was like: 'fucks sake why are you here? You probably don't like me, and even if you did it probably wouldn't work out anyways and you probably have a bf anyways. I just want to forget about you and move on with my life'
This just made it worse and more uncomfortable. So I decided to stop fighting and sit with her energy. As I sat with her I felt that she was scared. Instinctively I gave her a hug but with my energy. As I held her I felt not like my usual neurotic self but as the divine masculine. I held her in a comforting and protective way and she slowly felt more safe and the energetic tension loosened. The energy then dissipated and I was back to normal by myself.
The next day I see her and she's super warm and chatty towards be despite every previous interaction being super awkward. She even gave me a hug while I was going through a bad mental episode. But keep in mind that at this point we are still barely friends in 3d so this was super surprising.
Unfortunately she has a bf and I saw them kissing so fuck my life...