u/Exotic-Grade-9257

Is this something real? I feel I have developed some personality, where falling in love became next to impossible.

I started to see people for who they are, and relationships are nothing more than trade, I don't sugarcoat anything anymore, and that's the reason, I don't flirt with women anymore.

After being fully aware that one gets evaluated on the basis of looks, height, color, income, and everything, yes even in lesbian/bisexual community.

I am a good looking woman, and somehow knowing that women choose me for my looks, and what I can do for them, I started despising the concept of relationships.

And I am not exaggerating, I have pulled women from most fields, be it Engineering, be it Sports, be it Dentist, be it Doctors, Finance (She was my favourite).

And now that I know the reason, why they were with me, because of my looks and the money I make, and what I could do for them, it makes me dislike this love and relationships more.

Now I don't know what to do? Will I ever get that back, my faith in people? my faith in women in general?

Because I can't be with someone if I don't love them.

Also, should I start hiding my Income from women, because I can't obviously hide my looks.

Just getting bored, and want someone to text with.

Hmu, if you are interested.

I just want to forget about her.

She wasn't a bad person, but was very bad towards me.

I still care about her, whether she is okay, how she might be managing without me.

She left me for a very petty reason.

I saw her posts on Instagram, how she is feeling lonely and how she craves for a special connection and everything.

But I couldn't do anything about it, she wants the love , she wants someone to protect her in every way, but not from me, and I accepted that fact, but somewhere I still end up thinking about her.

I know it's not love from my side as well, I just don't know what to do with these thoughts.

If you are working on any personal projects, where you need to work everyday for 1-3 hours,

And want someone as an accountability partner.

Let me know.

Someone asked this to men, and I want to know from women who date women.

I don't know how to feel that everything is okay, That I have food to eat, work to do, friends and everything,

I want suggestions from single lesbians, who have nothing romantic going on in their life, like no ex, no one sided love, no crush on anyone, no trying to move on, How do you girls keep going?

I don't know how to do it.