Should I (M24) break no contact with my Ex? (F23)
around two weeks ago my long distance girlfriend and I broke up. However, there’s some factors and some things that I’ve noticed that has me dying to reach out to her. To cut a long story short we have been fighting for a few weeks leading up to the end of our relationship which was over a year and a half. She had a bunch of childhood trauma resurface recently, and it caused her to change as a person and to turn into someone that I didn’t recognize. she became very distant, non communicative, would act like I’m a burden to her when I’m just asking to help or for her to talk to me and to be honest I didn’t handle that the best and there are some moments that I wish I could change or that I could’ve handled differently, so she was the one that broke up with me on a Saturday.
The next day, however we called and talked for two hours. I laid everything out on the table and begged her not to leave, And told her I was willing to work on anything or go through anything just so like I could spend the rest of my life with her, but it didn’t work out. She ended the call, not saying goodbye but by saying she loves me and you could hear her crying over the phone.
And over the course of the next few days, I would get notifications that she’s typing to me on Snapchat multiple times, But would never send anything, She’s posting notes on Instagram of song lyrics that are exactly like our situation, And she unsent an iMessage text to me as well.
Even though she was the one that ended everything, I haven’t reached out to text her Because I figured she needs space, I did however send her a bouquet of flowers With a note attached to it saying “I hope you’re doing better with everything that’s been going on. I hope you’re okay you’ve found peace, and I’ve been praying for you daily“ And I never got a response or an acknowledgment about it. I don’t want to spam her or blow up her phone But I really get her back but at the same time not invade her space since she’s the one that ended things. ive thought about waiting to see if she ever reaches out but I also know that could never happen or it could be a very long time if it even does. We don’t have eachother blocked on any platforms and still follow one another so there’s no hate on either side at least from what I’m aware of. what should I do?