When it comes to mental health, I feel like I do pretty well. I was extremely depressed 2 years ago, and I ended up having to go to a hospital after a conglomerate of bad things happened at once (this is when I got diagnosed with anxiety and depression). I am now studying abroad in a different country, where I have literally no friends because I am an introvert.
Now, I am scared because there are many things happening just like what happened two years ago. My boyfriend just broke up with me this morning, all 3 of my roommates don't talk to me and do things without me (they are actually gone right now), and I just found out my grandma is dying a couple of days ago.
I have only cut once before, and that was before I got admitted to the hospital. But I am so mad at myself because I cut myself again, but worse. I hate it, but I can't stop.
I feel like I do not feel depressed or anxious often. But when I do feel this way, it gets extreme. I don't know what to do. I have no coping methods. I am just freaking out. I think this is literally my second Reddit post ever. I am just so, so lost. I want to go back home, but I want to finish out this semester because it is only one more month. I can't cry anymore, I can't sleep, I can't eat. All I can do is sit here with my thoughts.