I don't have anyone anymore
26m. really don't know if I can cope with this for much longer. I don't go outside anymore and people have just forgotten I exist. It's not like I ever had many friends but at least I had some, then came a point that most of the people I called "friends" were only around because we liked the same drugs, anyone outside of that eventually got sick of me. now I'm clean but I honestly don't even know why at this point, it's been nearly 4 years and I feel worse than I've ever felt. I got made redundant at work and since then my mental health has been in steep decline, panic attacks and episodes are the worst they've been since I was a child and I had to move back in with my dad. currently unemployed and getting money from the government, self worth so low I want to disappear. I've just given up living, partly out of shame, partly because I really don't want to be here anymore. no friends, no partner, no close family outside of my dad, I don't have anyone to talk to at all. I don't exactly want to advice, I'm not sure I'd be able to implement it, I just needed somewhere to vent. I'm struggling to see the point in anything without human connection, everything just seems so pointless and I'm ready to give up.