Hi guys, I just need some outsider thoughts on this although I think the ending has been decided for me already.
This all started from me and her streak ending because she didn’t send hers through so I texted her jokingly saying can’t believe you lost it. I wasn’t mad that we lost it but in my heart I felt sad because I felt like our connection was lost.
The background to my feelings at that time was because we both live in different countries at the moment, we met at school and have been friends for over 6 years now. She knows everything about me and I considered her my best friends (she’s also said I’m her best friend). We now have jobs at the same time and studying for our degree so I know she’s busy as am I but I prioritise her when she needs me. For example she’s taken on a lot of work because she’s a perfectionist and often has mental breakdowns, she texts me for comfort and I always reply to her almost immediately when I see that she needs my advice. This was happening like very month and at some point I said I’ve been repeating myself so many times you don’t listen and it’s draining me so idk what else to say to you, we eventually moved on from that and ever since then as she’s started to manage things better we haven’t had that issue since.
I however, when I text her wanting advice or when someone happened in my life that I can’t wait to have with her she’ll either open my message and never reply or open it then days later text me about what she wants to talk about. Maybe 30% of the time she actually replies to what I said first so that already made me feel weird and I know you’re busy but I’m busy too. So unless she has something to say to me we don’t talk for days even if I text her, hence I felt sad when we lost the streak.
She then replies to my message saying it’s okay I don’t care about that anyway and changes the subject. I got frustrated and told her this wasn’t about the streak for me and then she leaves me on read for about a week then replies to me with “hey…” and that was my breaking point. I told her how disrespectful this was for her to just leave me when I was trying to communicate with her and for some reason she just couldn’t understand where this was coming from and said work for word I do care about you which is why I replied. I responded with me just expressing that I felt neglected is this friendship and that I shouldn’t feel grateful that she relied to me it shouldn’t be normal when I care so much about her.
She has left me on delivered for over two weeks now and I guess our friendship is over?
Any advice would be great, is it over or should I still wait and see. I don’t know if I want to stand for this anymore it doesn’t feel fair. If anything I feel disappointed because I felt like we were forever and this was so unexpected.