u/Existential_Crisis90

Went NC with my dad about a year ago and I’m still struggling with feeling guilty. The closer it gets to the year mark my anxiety and guilt are kicking my ass, is this normal?

This has been bothering me for YEARS and I really want to know that I’m not alone in this experience. I was required to become a member of the nondenominational church I was part of if I wanted to keep playing on the worship team. This process required classes and a weekend retreat. Well on that retreat, we had to do this thing called renouncing. We were handed a packet of very personal questions, basically requiring us to disclose things we more than likely wouldn’t to complete strangers. Things such as sexual history, lying, mental health issues, family dynamics, etc. when we were done filling it out we were individually brought into a room with an associate pastor and another member of the church who read over the packet and chose things we needed to “hand over to God and be free” of. So here I am, in a room with a pastor (I thought I was lucky at that time that the pastor who was with me was the pastors wife as she and I had good rapport) and another member (who I also knew pretty well as she was a lead singer on the worship team) and they’re reading over my packet. They chose things to renounce, and I had to repeat this “prayer” out loud for each “sin” I confessed to. Mind you I was about 17 years old or so. They then layed hands on me and prayed over me which felt like forever. I still don’t know what they did with that packet of information, but over the years now that I look back they definitely used some of that against me

Has anyone who was part of a nondenominational Christian church experienced anything like this? I know it sounds crazy but it happened I swear!