I’m exhausted. After psychosis, I have felt so incapable of life. I’m suffering from chronic anxiety and panic, not knowing how the next day is going to go. My thoughts are such a source of confusion, and they’re racing all the time. I have no place to rest my mind.
I used to believe in such positive things! Spirituality, guides, god, angels. After psychosis I feel like I was shown just how alone and abandoned I am, with no real truth to find… and also shown just how bad it can get. The fear and pain and suffering we are capable of feeling as human beings is horrendous.
I’m making this post because I woke up to extreme panic at 4am and can’t sleep. I’m worried about not making enough money. Not having a good career. Not knowing how to take care of myself. Just being so mentally ill that I can’t control anything. So strange how much I wasn’t worried before and now it’s every day…
Anyone else feel this way?