روحت عشان أعمل كشف لحالة في البيت لحد قريبي لقيتها مش موجودة وقريبي بيقولي إنها عند بيت بنتها جمبنا وضغط عليا عشان أروح بيت بنتها عشان اكشف عليها هناك وللأسف روحت عشان معملش زعلة معاها هل كنت مشيت أحسن لما ملقيتهاش موجودة؟
Today feeling tired unmotivated low energy just needing to get rest and sleepy all the day, got an urge but I have destroyed it before and replaced it with another urge, I will continue my life without this bullshit addiction, need to remind my mind it's not good to ever back to the self destruction habit, let's continue the journey of freedom, stay strong!!
I got an severe pain in my right partoof my stomach got an ct scan found it's an calcium oxalate stone, here's an information of if, is there's any chance today pass it without meds or surgery
Middle third ureteric stone measuring 8x5mm(1500HU) associated grade 1 Hydronephrosis
Yeah, about to end my first 24 hours clean and without this shit from my life, pain in the shaft has decreased a lot comparing to the morning after multiple times of relapsing yesterday, I had previous streaks but first 24h is one of the hardest challenges, but It's not a challenge for me it's a choice an decision I have taken to end and get rid of this fake addiction of my life, i think my brain is needing an enough time to heal from this shit habit, I'll ignore the counter let the days counts but maybe after the first month I will forget about that, hope I can pass the first two weeks clean without any urges ISA.
Relapsed multiple times yesterday
Slept of tired without taking a shower or clean myself
Wake up with pain in my shaft
Feeling like shit and emotional anxiety and worrying about my future
Still can't make an plan for my work in the future
My life is on a pause cuz of this shit addiction
I've had enough for this destructive habit
NO more wasting my life for nothing literally!!
The problem is in my brain urges that's the only and my main problem for releasing I hope time and patience and dedication and discipline can heal my brain from these painful thoughts!
I've taken the decision to never ever back again
Starting today despite Tha pain I will make it for Allah and my family and my life!!!