After exactly 1 year, I broke up with my AP. I’m heartbroken - but I felt we were in a loop in which neither of us were going anywhere.
Our marriages were in pieces. We met and lived ourselves at the office, and there we spent most of our time together. Our relationship was mainly made of virtual conversations and coffee breaks - but we had our good share of fun. The physical chemistry is (was) unbelievable - the best I’ve ever had.
However, we sorta created this routine in which we enjoyed our weekedays together and then resisted the weekends apart. We did plans to be together but no one really moved, since yes weekends were bad but not insufferable - Mondays were always behind the corner.
I left her - I said to her that while I feel very committed to her, this isn’t how I wanna live. I want more, I want to move on. If we are meant to continue together, I must leave my wife first and I don’t feel I’m ever be able to do so if I don’t force myself where I’m very unconfortable. And even so, I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to.
Not sure why I’m sharing this - just ranting I guess, or the need to tell somebody about this since I can’t talk to anyone. Thanks for reading and sorry about any mistakes, english is my 2nd language and I refuse to use AI to write.