Just for me though. I dont wanna be this dude. Love the idea of caring and being cared as a friend but I want more.
But hey you have said a few times to me "sometimes you just gotta try anyway" referring to trying to steal someone's girl. Morally I dont like it but ill try in the most morally way possible.
So many times ive thought it was coming to an end and have began to accept it. During those times it was always a heart wrenching feeling but over time the acceptance would be in arms reach. But before I could accept that you and I were finito, we would reconcile and it would start over again.
This time the feeling is so much more intense and physically hurts.
I wont let it happen again, saying that with such a heavy heart. I cant keep doing this to myself. I love you and wish you everything.
So sad.
You dont get to change your mind on this down the road, so if your serious about your decision, dont call me until he proposes to you. If you are not sure then you need to make it readily apparent that you are actually going to put your all into us.
Yes I will always be here for you no matter what but unless you make it obvious that you want me and no one else then I will keep you in a pen pal type of space so I dont ever get attached like I have to you so many times before.
Love you tons so I hope I dont have to accept this.