I’m really scared about not having my dad around
Hi,
So basically my dad is terminally sick and is slowly losing his ability to do things, I relied on him a lot for people understanding my autism, emotional support, mealtdown support, advice, mental health and all that. Overall I can be independent but as he’s got sicker and sicker I’ve realised how much I rely on him for my autism.
I don’t really know what I’m going to do when he’s gone? I’m 19, my mums dead, I haven’t got any family who really understand autism or anything or who I’m close enough with.
I’m so scared of navigating the world without him in future, we’re really close. I don’t know how to process losing him in general and then the idea that I won’t have him around to help since at the moment I’m repeating six form a 3rd time after struggling with autism, can’t handle a job so need pip and rely on him for help and still live at home.
I don’t know what will happen and I’m scared. I don’t think I’ll be able to cope without a support network I know will be there if I do mealtdown or something.