how to stop self sabotaging relationships
i can't stop self sabotaging my relationships. for about two years (since my bpd symptoms started) i've been doing bad things to people that i'm supposed to love and care about. i've stole from three family members and a family friend with no reason to i just have thoughts about doing it and tell myself no dont do it over and over again but it's like i just do it almost like on autopilot. my dad tells me i'm supposed to be not making bad decisions and it impairs our relationship when i do, but i still do them. he tells me to just not do them and i'm like okay i wont but i end up doing this over and over again. i convince myself that i don't care about people because they judge me and don't really like me and then i do these things because i don't care about the people and then it turns out i do. i don't know how to stop this it's been going on for two years. i know it sounds like i'm just a bad person but just hear me out