i feel so defeated
i've been doing SO much better than i ever have been. i'm on new medication that makes a life changing difference for me, i'm in a specialized dbt therapy + doing a dbt skills class, i was in a healthy relationship - feeling so much better than i have in years after multiple hospital trips... and now i'm scared my progress is ruined. last night out of nowhere, i get blocked on EVERY platform by my boyfriend. even spotify. literally 30 minutes after we had a normal, sweet conversation. i don't understand it at all. i had a gut feeling he was pulling away from me but he was also working a LOT with no days off, so i tried to use what i'm learning and "check the facts" but i was right the whole time. i'm totally crushed. we are medium/long distance and i had just finished buying him things to send in a package + wrote him a love letter (all of which he was aware of and excited for). my heart is completely broken and i feel so dumb for letting myself get vulnerable again. i really trusted that this would work out, HE pursued me first :( i am so sad and angry that someone can just block you without communicating. people are so childish. i'm thankful to have an appointment with my therapist on monday, but these next few days will be excruciatingly hard. i feel so defeated and hurt.. time to sleep it off.
welcoming advice or even if you can relate