I've been with my wife for around 14 years in total and I would say for the majority of the relationship I have known that she is not ever going to make me feel content. We have two kids and she's a great mum. But in our relationship there's so much about her that I don't love. I met my AP last year and we instantly clicked. Things with her felt amazing even just chatting and then we met up and everything felt perfect. We are in similar situations with our families and live near enough that we could meet halfway but lately this has changed because the risk got too much and we nearly got caught. We still chat but we have no idea if or when we will ever meet again.
Last night I was thinking about my life and realised how much I am missing the chemistry and connection that we had. I love my kids and I have a nice life but ultimately I feel like I am living a lie because deep down I'm not happy.
Sorry, I'm not asking for anything here, just want to offload.