u/Excellent-Tear-9006

I almost ended up being one but luckily I got through it.

Hindi biro, I was 16 years old and been with my now ex girlfriend for a year when it happened.

She was my 2nd girlfriend and also my greatest love and kung titignan, ibang iba talaga personality namin.

Im nonchalant and she is an extrovert who’s famous sa school since she’s beautiful din talaga kasi half american and pilipino.

We knew each other dahil sa sports and she courted me then we became together after 2weeks (bilis noh? HAHSHAHAHHA)

Dami kong first time sakanya and a lot of things na unknowingly nakuha ko sakanya like first kiss, hug etc. and theres a really huge gap saming dalawa. Its like sanay sya sa mga talks abt s*x like kunyare biruan nilang magkakaibigan and mga ilang months dirty talks na din samin on chat where there’s me na uncomfy or like di talaga sanay sa mga usapin na ganun since im studying pa lang, I was really a gentle person, tanimik and ang bata ko pa and habang tumatagal kami unti unti lo na na aapply without knowing na im doing it for the sake of belongingness, makasabay sakanya or maging comfy sya sakin then ayun na nga, 11months na kami and first time ko syang nadala sa bahay and while we’re kissing, I slowly put my hand into her pants remembering all the teases she said and just did with my finger and continue a few times with just like that, no penatration. and 1&1month kami dun na may nangyari talaga without protection becaunga nandun na ko sa feeling na yun and wala na kong magawa. I didn’t tell her that I **** in her and pagkahatid ko sakanya nag chat na ko pag uwi and dun ko lang nasabi sakanya and guess what, pinagmumura ako and compared me to the people na galit na galit sya because of what they did (her father and brother) without knowing na gulong gulo na isip ko kung pano gagawin but I remained calm until mahatid ko sya because I know she might breakout sa kasalanang dalawa naman kaming involved then I broke with her na for a lot of reason then nakita ko pa na ganunin nya ko na para bang sya lang apektado and after that I researched and I let her drink pills.

I understand her pa din naman, her childhood and love/relationship experience is not that good that could be the main factor on how she acts.

Yes I know iisipin ng karamihan na gusto lang nyan magsaya, mga di nag iisip, puro landi lang iniisip etc. but based from what I realized on what happened its not solely links with curiosity or the “bugso ng damdamin” but theres more deeper reason or psychosocial factor involved and maybe since we’re still teenagers that our frontal lobe which is responsible for our decision making that could be also the reason why most of teens and hindi din natin sila masisisi.

Its not a joke or just stupid teens that no one can stop—they’re just a child who’s filling the missing gaps and still not sure or fighting a silent battle from a war that could be a lot lighter with guidance.

Need advice po.

Im an incoming 1st year student but im worried kung san ako kukuha ng panggastos. Walang work si mama kasi shes old na din and yung mga kuya/ate ko is nag sisimula na mag build ng kanya kanya nilang family kaya ayoko talaga manghingi kasi alam ko may mga kailangan silang panggastusan and nasanay na din talaga ako na hihingj na lang talaga pag kailangan na kailangan na kasi naiipon ko naman mga baon ko tapos ayun yung pinanggastos ko kaso ngayon si mama di na talaga makakapagbigay pero nag offer sakin yung kuya ko na try ko daw mag business or buy&sell and sya daw sasagot pang finance para may pang income daw ako but idk how or where to start.

Any advice po? I have no background sa coding so I wanted to advance study but idk where to start. Ano po ba mga subjects sa 1st year and also may time ba na pipili kami kung san mag major? thankyouu in advanceee!!

So there’s something i’ve been thinking about for a long time whether its a sin.

It just randomly came in my mind but napaisip ako if sui*cide is a sin if yung taong nasa kalagayan na yun is wala na talagang magawa?

Correct me if im wrong but I remember may nabasa ako na malaking factor yung childhood natin sa kung ano tayo ngayon then pano pa kung yung relationship or treatment satin ng nasa paligid natin as we grow older ay hindi din maganda.

I have this scenario in my mind where a person who ended his/her life is natatawag na “makasalanan” or “hindi tatanggapin sa langit yan” but what if sa times na kailangan na kailangan nya ng tulong eh wala na syang malapitan? pano kung lumaki yung tao na yun sa family na hindi nakikita ang value mo at di mo makasama sa hirap at ginhawa tapos nababalewala lang yung feelings mo?

Well, may part na may magsasbi na pwede naman lumapit sa iba or maybe mahina lang loob etc. but I think di din sya ganun kadaling sabihin since a lot of what we do or used to do when we are growing up from a child is malaking factor sa mga habits and coping

So whats your thoughts po?