got a job but at what cost
i (23f) finally landed a stable job with full time hours and benefits. i’ll earn just enough money to live on my own + my savings from previous part time jobs will keep me afloat. the catch is, that it’s a 5 min drive to my mothers new home she bought (for my sibling, her and i to live in). i have my own room and everything here but at the cost of what. my indian mother will still prevent me from going outside whenever i have free time, and will continue forcing me to marry a villager in her home country who doesn’t know a word of english. she will continue to call me names, curse me and try to control my life. she will continue to smash cups on the ground and scream at me when i don’t comply to every word she says. infact, she expects me to get married to that villager specifically, and for him and i to stay in this current home and “give her grandkids”. which is actually nauseating for me to even type out.
anyways, i have a secret bf that i see whenever i have time but since i moved to another town, it’s like a 1.5 hr bus ride away and a 30min drive on the highway to see him. he said he doesn’t mind coming to my town to see me, but id prefer going to his city, because i lived in that area previously for basically my whole life. he also doesn’t have his own car which makes it challenging.
there is an office for my workplace in that same city i lived in previously, and where my bf lives. so i’m going to try to find out if i can get transferred once my probation period is over. the only thing is, it’ll be expensive to live in that city if im making the same wage i currently am. so i pray that i get a high paying offer in that city
im really excited for the job but i dont want to stay in this home with her for more than like 6 months. idk if i should suck it up and stay for another year + work just to save money but im at my wits end. that’ll also make me 24 living at home which i definitely DON’T want. because i know my mom wants me married off by 25 and i imagine it’ll just get harder and harder to live at home, if i don’t get my shit together and leave.
my bf is really patient but ngl its still early in the relationship and i feel like if i always have to rush home early, it’ll put a strain on our relationship. he didn’t show any signs of annoyance that i have a curfew so far, but in my past relationship there was a strain on that relationship because i was never allowed to go out at night.