u/Exact_Willingness_51

im muslim & grew up in a religious muslim household w even more religious muslim cousins & family members, i never felt a connection to islam like ever, even while prayer it never felt like prayer it always felt preformative cause it was. i really only did most of the practices cause i felt pressure from my family so i preformed islam. (i also grew up in the middle east until the age of 13, now in the west) as i age & become more me & experience life more i’ve realized most of my friends have been christian & ive even gone to a lot of bible studies & loveeee them. earlier this year i fell down a conspiracy theory rabbit whole ofc & that actually led me to believe in jesus i pray in jesus’ name, i even got myself a comic book bible too. i feel really really scared about my future cause i do wanna marry a christian man eventually but my family would actually go ballistic. it isn’t really much of a problem right now, but ik when im ready for marriage they’re gonna know i don’t really connect w islam & i would consider myself more christian on the inside. i don’t really know what to do honestly.

ive realized i really struggle with being warm to people who i dont see have good intentions, or even people i find super annoying. i don’t really like that i can be cold to people who annoy me (i don’t just mean when they do something small but who they are as a person) or even people who have corrupt morals, i judge them cause i dont wanna be like that, but i wanna know how to lead with more love the way jesus does. its hard for me to not show how i feel or kinda mask it, i dont know the medium between being fake & being cold. i just dont like showing people that the way they behave or act is normal by enabling it, but i dont constantly want to be someone who calls people out left & right cause im not even all that myself. i don’t know what do.

ive been judged for my weight ever since i was a kid by family members & kids at school. now that im older ive been going to the gym & actually working on my body a lot. ive made amazing progress ive lost around 50 pounds, but i wanna loose 30 more. i feel pretty confident about who i am as a person. im smart, funny, kind, creative etc… but i struggle with feeling pretty physically. my face is pretty, but i compare my body to a lot of girls i see at the gym & even my best friend who naturally has a great physique. how do i stop feeling less than physically??? i dont know how to repair these deep rooted wounds at all.

the thing is when im alone in my house or just w my bf i feel very psychically confident, its just when i get to the gym, & see super fit girls or even look at my bestfriend at the gym. idk why

whats the best way for a director to communicate their vision to the actor? im starting my first short film & i obviously have every shot/character in mind. i also am collaborative so i dont mind feedback if you think it can make something better. i just wanna know how do i be open to ideas but also be able to be firm on mine if i wanna go my route?? whats the best type of communication style, when verbalizing your vision to people who dont understand it?